♥ Asphyxiated Love

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Time Check: 12.53pm

Sweetheart is still in the surgery room. It's been close to 3hrs since he went in. I'm freaking dead worried. I hope he's fine.

Oh God, there's a tension knot in my chest and it's weighing me down. I feel so tired. I feel like crying. I can't think straight. I can't breathe properly. I'm so helpless right now.

Dear God, please let everything go smoothly. Amen.

UPDATE:

Time Check: 2.42pm

Sweetheart's mom called a minute ago. The surgery just ended. She said he's not conscious and still breathing through the oxygen mask. She sounded so tired, sad and worried. That somehow made my heart pumps faster. I can hear it beating in my ears and its pounding in my head. And I can't seem to calm myself down.

I think I'm hyperventilating for no reason.

I need my boo boo to wake up from this nightmare and assure me he's fine!!! Please boo, be strong for me...

GOD, HELP HIM!!! HELP ME!!! HELP US!!! God, we need you now...

UPDATE:

Time Check: 10.31pm

I skipped the second half of class just now. Couldn't understand a single thing taught by my lecturer so I gave up. My mind seems to be blocked and confused. All I know is that I'm having migraine. And how do I know it's migraine and not some intense headache? It's because I see flashes of light when I look at things. The doctor said it's migraine only of you see flashes of light like lightning. Hmm...

I called sweetheart's mom before start of class. She said boo boo woke up but was extremely weak that he doze off again. He can't even talk due to the pain he's suffering from. This is so sad. I need to visit him. I need to be by his side.

People, I'm going to Singapore General Hospital tomorrow morning. I'm going to hug my boo boo sweetheart so tight till he magically gets cured.

I loVe him so very much.

Dearest God, thank you for letting the surgery go smoothly. All I need is one more favour: please let him recover fully...

More than anything,
Wednesday, July 30, 2008.