Wednesday, August 30, 2006
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<$> Worry gives a SMALL thing a BIG shadow <$>
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You have been waiting for this for so long that you might not recognize them when they come along -- which is likely to be today. There are signs that your desires are getting some traction. Don't look so hard to see something that is standing right in front of you. Try to devote a couple of hours of your day toward relaxation ... slow your heart and your mind down. Right now they are both racing, and that may be preventing you from opening up and letting other people in.
- Leo horoscope for today, 30th August.
What is happening to me!!! I don't know what's going on!!! I just wish everything will stop. Stop it!!!
This is good. Very good. Sometimes Ilma just needs a very good slap right in the face. An extremely good wake up call. The first time huh, Ilma? How does it feel? Nice right!!! Very good for you to learn this lesson.
You've been too much of a foolish bastard. An abysmally foolish bitch. And yet she retaliates, "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing. That's Ms. Bitch to you! I'm tough, ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay!"
You don't get it do you, ilma? You claim to know exactly what you want! when the truth is that you don't know what's what. And at this point, this particular last chance, where's your confidence? Where's the lively air around you? Where's your final decision? Now at this point you've got nothing! You didn't plan for this but it happened. How could you do this?! What's going on inside of your goddamnit brain?! Why are you like this?! What the hell did you think you were doing?! I told you didn't I?! I told you to stop procrastinating and yet you did not heed my advice. How foolish of you...
Young and foolish. That's what people say, right? The youngsters are always foolish. They don't seem to see the urgency of the matter till it's over. How typical of you too. Said you're different. Claimed you'll always get through no matter what. Stated perfectly well that you'll never not achieve what you want. So how's this? Is it because you were totally tired of this or is it because you were so far away from reality? drifted right off to Pluto I dare say...
Now, Ilma, claim your innocence as well as plead guilty. I want to hear your bloody dang of an explanation
FINE!!! I'm in the wrong. I'm perfectly imperfect. I make BIG mistakes and never did learnt from any of them.
I thought this would be easy. I really did. Went through all the past fews and see I'm all set. Alas, God wants me to learn the feeling of true disappointment. Cruel of Him? Not at all. He's nice enough to set a big strong soft mat to catch my fall. If not, how else do you think I could still be happy right now? Yeah sure I'm very shattered at the moment but I...I'm content to have make it this far. This, all of these mess and satisfaction of it, was the decision I made at the first chance to prove myself. I wanted to be 'it'. I wanted to say,' hey, I'm here! Pay attention to me. I don't talk for my health.' But what did I srewed up at the final hurdle? Was it because my head was getting far too big for my feet to leap. Yeah, I crashed right through this final hurdle. No graceful leaps like the first two. Just too typical of me. I knew all along it won't work but I still forced it to. The thing that I never understood before is that life doesn't have to be the same. It changes. Everything changes. I should change. Doesn't mean it worked for the first and second time that it will work for the third. I saw that it worked out well the first time, quite shaky for the second, and damn impossible for the third. But why did I put faith in something I knew long before is out of reality? It's because I wanted to experiment if my way could work out for every other. Picked the wrong timing, didn't I? Treated this as something so sure of. I've comprehended all these lessons. I totally know what I need to do now. Thank God you love me. It's just something I need to be aware of next time. I'll change but do give me time. You know...it's hard to get rid of old habbits.
It doesn't matter how small the steps are...
What matters is that you took them.
Love, from me, myself and I; ilma
Toodles
- Leo horoscope for today, 30th August.
What is happening to me!!! I don't know what's going on!!! I just wish everything will stop. Stop it!!!
This is good. Very good. Sometimes Ilma just needs a very good slap right in the face. An extremely good wake up call. The first time huh, Ilma? How does it feel? Nice right!!! Very good for you to learn this lesson.
You've been too much of a foolish bastard. An abysmally foolish bitch. And yet she retaliates, "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing. That's Ms. Bitch to you! I'm tough, ambitious, and I know exactly what I want. If that makes me a bitch, okay!"
You don't get it do you, ilma? You claim to know exactly what you want! when the truth is that you don't know what's what. And at this point, this particular last chance, where's your confidence? Where's the lively air around you? Where's your final decision? Now at this point you've got nothing! You didn't plan for this but it happened. How could you do this?! What's going on inside of your goddamnit brain?! Why are you like this?! What the hell did you think you were doing?! I told you didn't I?! I told you to stop procrastinating and yet you did not heed my advice. How foolish of you...
Young and foolish. That's what people say, right? The youngsters are always foolish. They don't seem to see the urgency of the matter till it's over. How typical of you too. Said you're different. Claimed you'll always get through no matter what. Stated perfectly well that you'll never not achieve what you want. So how's this? Is it because you were totally tired of this or is it because you were so far away from reality? drifted right off to Pluto I dare say...
Now, Ilma, claim your innocence as well as plead guilty. I want to hear your bloody dang of an explanation
FINE!!! I'm in the wrong. I'm perfectly imperfect. I make BIG mistakes and never did learnt from any of them.
I thought this would be easy. I really did. Went through all the past fews and see I'm all set. Alas, God wants me to learn the feeling of true disappointment. Cruel of Him? Not at all. He's nice enough to set a big strong soft mat to catch my fall. If not, how else do you think I could still be happy right now? Yeah sure I'm very shattered at the moment but I...I'm content to have make it this far. This, all of these mess and satisfaction of it, was the decision I made at the first chance to prove myself. I wanted to be 'it'. I wanted to say,' hey, I'm here! Pay attention to me. I don't talk for my health.' But what did I srewed up at the final hurdle? Was it because my head was getting far too big for my feet to leap. Yeah, I crashed right through this final hurdle. No graceful leaps like the first two. Just too typical of me. I knew all along it won't work but I still forced it to. The thing that I never understood before is that life doesn't have to be the same. It changes. Everything changes. I should change. Doesn't mean it worked for the first and second time that it will work for the third. I saw that it worked out well the first time, quite shaky for the second, and damn impossible for the third. But why did I put faith in something I knew long before is out of reality? It's because I wanted to experiment if my way could work out for every other. Picked the wrong timing, didn't I? Treated this as something so sure of. I've comprehended all these lessons. I totally know what I need to do now. Thank God you love me. It's just something I need to be aware of next time. I'll change but do give me time. You know...it's hard to get rid of old habbits.
It doesn't matter how small the steps are...
What matters is that you took them.
Love, from me, myself and I; ilma
Toodles
More than anything,
Wednesday, August 30, 2006.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006.
